can you spare a thought?

I'm distracted by a million thoughts all tugging at strands of my brain, begging for attention and direction. But there's one thought who has outsmarted the lot. One thought that doesn't need to tug for my attention.
This frustrating anomaly keeps my brain going round and round in circles. I don't know what it's trying to tell me. I can't stop trying to figure it out.
I'm wasting time here, wasting life here. So please, just answer me: Who are you?
I can't stop trying to figure out what I want, what I need, what I already have.
Do I have you? Do I know you? Have we met? Can we meet?

I feel so lost when you're not around.
I don't know you, and I don't know how to get to know you.
Do I know you?









Dear Mysterious thoughts,

i love you,
I can't sleep at night.
Whenever I close my eyes you're there, haunting me.
Why can't I get you out of my head? What makes you think you own it? That you belong there?
Don't you think it's time you moved on? Aren't you bored... ready to leave?
I don't know what to do to get rid of you, nothing's making you disappear.
Who are you?
You take up so much of my time with random thoughts and smiles. I want you gone so I can get back to my new life.
I do have a plan. I will beat you.
Do you want to hear my plan?
Too bad.
I'll get you out of my head, you better believe it. I have to because I need to... I want to be free again.
When was I ever free?
I'll get you out of my head. You watch out, I'm a forced to reckoned with. And when you're out you will be in so much trouble you will be forging fake ID's and passports and leaving the country... but guess what, I'll already be at the airport, waiting for you.
I'll get you out of my head and once I have that space back I'll use all that you usurped to plot my next move, making sure you feel my wrath.
I'll get you out of my head, and once I do I'll make sure... I'll make damn sure.
I'm getting you out of my head and I'm getting you into my bed, I need to. I need you.

I have a plan

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