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I spent today alone, huddled inside my head. I've been thinking too much lately and it's been making things harder than they should be.
Quiet brain, I already know what you're going to say and I've looked at it from every possible angle and still have no answer. Please leave me alone for a little while, I need space to not-think.
huddled inside my bed, huddled inside my head.
For some reason I'm not finding comfort in my usual places. Those little nooks I normally bury my nose to stop my brain mulling over the same old things. I've thought this all before, felt this all before; worried, fussed, obsessed over it time and time again.
Come on brain, where's your imagination? Give me something new to think, to feel. Give me someone new to be. Please. I'm tired of it all.

Dear Brain,

i love you
But spending the day with you made me realise just how much things have actually changed. You don't surprise me with your quirkiness anymore, I don't wake up confused about the colourful and hilarious dreams you have shown me in my sleep.
Sometime I find myself annoyed by everything you do, I could pick apart every little aspect of you and hate it all. You are boring, you are predictable, but you are mine.
You belong to me brain and me to you, but we've grown so far apart and I don't know how to get back to where we were.
I love you - I'm
just not IN love with you...

I'm sorry.
(L)










P.S. Would you consider couples counseling?