rumours

I don't actually know whether it's strange or not, whether it makes me abnormal... but I don't think it does...
So, I like a little bit of pain sometimes, I'm thinking that's not the weirdest thing anyone's ever heard since we all tongue our loose teeth even though it hurts, its a good sort of pain? right?
Well, I love all sorts of painful things, nothing too fucked up or crazy like whips or cutting or anything like that, I'm talking lamecore painful things. Like Chinese burns, slaps, pinches, that feeling when you accidentally ram yourself into something and feel like the limb in question may never work properly again. Maybe thats why I have so many brusies, perhaps subconciusly my body's looking for it's next hit. Sicko.







Dear Pinches

i love you
You are the most sexy thing I have ever seen on this planet and, consequently, you turn me on terribly!
I know it's probably crazy to love you like this when all you do is hurt me... but you're everything to me, I know you can be short and blunt but I'm happy to endure the pain for the moments of ecstasy they bring, moments of pure uninhibited excitement and passion.
The pain excites me, I know it's wrong to say, I'm sitting here thinking about all the women trapped in abusive relationships who may read this and cry at my idiocy and all the Nazi feminist who would read this and feel compelled to throw up... But Pinches, if you stopped hurting me, I think I'd stop loving you.
Oh that is so screwed up, but I know you love me, I don't think you'd hurt me if I asked you to stop, a little bit of S&M never hurt anyone did it?

Oh wait, thats the point...
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